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| Friend Survey: for Jon(blue)
1. How long have you known me?
9 years...
2. Where did we first meet?
MS172, Mr.Kahns Lunchtime hangout
3. How did we meet?
You saw me looking up information on MegaMan X4
4. What was your first impression of me?
This dude just called me a newb... wth.
5. What is your current impression of me?
Brotherly love
6. What else do you think of me?
cabezon
7. Am I a good friend?(If yes, in what way?)
Yes, never steered me wrong, was always my conscience but could kick my ass if needed... Was always there when I struggled through the road life brought me.
8. How much have I changed since you met me?
A lot <_<, but your still lazy!
9. Have I changed for better, or for worse?
Sometimes I wonder.
10. List 3 words that you think best describe me.
Kind, Witty, Lazy
rofl, <3 ya J5
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| Today was a pretty wierd day... Started out windy as hell... Was walking diagonally across the sidewalks trying to get to school. Then it starts raining while I'm in school... I had a Test Taking Seminar the school made me take as a part of my agreement for being let back into school... So the seminar was @ 1pm, and I got outta class @ 11am, so I went to chill with Jon @ his job pretty much to kill time. I had this nice turkey and chedder cheese on sourdough bread with honey mustard dijion or w.e. So heading back towards school its still raining and blah so the days crappy... The seminar was easy... Only me and one other kid showed up lol... So w.e I get out and head home.. .I get off the train and notice its not raining but still a lil cloudy, so I was like meh, decent. I get off the bus on my block and see the oddest shit.... Look in three directions and different scenery on each...
Was pretty funny, but anywho... shits in life is as twisted as the scenery.. When I got home, I looked out my window twice, each time I looked I saw a different scenery... clear sky, and grey skies... Was odd... How the weather has been changing so quickly lately... Who knows whats going on. Got a new song that managed to slip out my mouth while I hummed on the way to get breakfast....
When I look into your eyes
There's nothing there to see
Nothing but my own mistakes
Staring back at me
[Backwards talk]
I've lied to you...
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you...
Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down
Everything has to end
(For the sake of being with you)
You'll soon find we're outta time
Left to watch it all unwind
Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down
The sacrifice is never knowing...
Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what you see
You're still so blind to me
[Backwards talk]
I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted to
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you
(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in the lies
(Everything has to end
You'll still find we're outta time
Left to watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing...
Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what you see
You're still so blind to me...
Reverse psychologys failing miserably
It's so hard to be
Left all alone
Telling you is the
Only chance for me
There's nothing left but to
Turn and face you
When I look into your eyes
Theres nothing there to see
Nothing but my own mistakes
Staring back at me
Asking why...
The sacrifice of hiding in the lies (why)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what you see
You're still so blind to me
Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what you see
You're still so blind to me....
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| I don't know what I'm doing with myself anymore... My selfish intent breaks me down inside... Life is somewhat good? idk you tell me... I got a fam that looks out for me and loves me and likes to be involved (when I let them :b)... I go to college to go for my bachelors... I'm unemployed but looking for job, just thinking of places I want to work and going down that list.... I could always go to some place where I don't wanna work but they will hire me... Or I could always go back to Lifeguarding... So I'm in college I got my friends, I got a hobby (video games... Need to get a hoop and ball so I can play) go to school, getting prepped for the future... But my love life is beyond fucked up, just seems like females don't wanna give me the time of day, but can't blame them... I just can't walk up to a girl I think looks cute (which is usually 3/4 of the population of women I see on the bus/train ride home that pull me into their orbit... Yet I can never build up the courage to speak to one... But my life feels like poison b/c I'm alone and both of my bestest(making up words here) have their significant others with them.. and here I am, wheel #3 or 5.. Always the odd man out... What to do with myself... What to do =/ Here's a song been stuck in my head for a long time... Guess I could relate this to women...
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven’t missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
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| Hide your face forever
dream and search forever
Have you ever been for sale ?
when your isms get smart
oh so selfish and mindless
with that comment in your eye
Do you think that you are hard ?
really harder than the other
man you're acting cold
if you are not in charge
Don't split your mentality
without thinking twice
your voice has got no reason
now is the time to face your lies
Open your eyes, open your mind
proud like a god don't pretend to be blind
trapped in yourself, break out instead
beat the machine that works in your head
Will you offer me some tricks
if I ever need them
would you go into that room
if I call 'em
Do you think that you are better
really better than the rest
realize there's a problem
I know that you can give your best
Have you ever had a dream?
or is life just a trip?
a trip without chances
a chance to grow up quick
Open your eyes, open your mind
proud like a god don't pretend to be blind
trapped in yourself, break out instead
beat the machine that works in your head
Hide your face forever
dream and search forever
night and night you feel nothing
there's no way outside of my land
Open your eyes, open your mind
proud like a god don't pretend to be blind
trapped in yourself, break out instead
beat the machine that works in your head
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| Wow I had an adventure on Tuesday. It was Demetri's birthday on the 3rd, so after I got outta class I met up w/Jon and Julie to get some stuff for his birthday. We went to Flushing to pick up his cake and some chasubao(sp?) pork dumplings, which are faking yummy.... On the way there we were on the 7 train and we saw some dude that looked like Lo pan (Guy from the movie Big Trouble in Little China, funny ass movie) and a Jackie chan stunt double... It was crazy as shit.
Felt bad for Demetri b/c he was having a bad day because along with it being his birthday, his apartment flooded so he was stuck at home cleaning shit, so we wanted to cheer him up by bringing him some treats and some balloons :D, we were on the last bus towards his house when we see this fat white guy that resembled Michael Moore looking at some notes that looked like they were school notes, but inbetween the pages he had... porno pictures... Or something, this guy was a faking nut job lol... After that he decided to pull out a wallet and has compact porn in it! This guy was trying to be non-challant(sp?) about it but the way he was trying to conceal it... but the reflection off the window was clear as day, and anyone looking into the bus could see it... This guy was retarded.....
After we got to D's house, we dropped the stuff off and went to go eat @ Applebees, which was a blast... (Meals on wheels! LMAO) After that, we went back to open the cake for Demetri... We got him a chocolate mousse cake that had strawberries, rasberries and blueberries on top, it was delicious... Then after hanging around in the house for a bit more playing around and watching some funny shit on the compy (YTMD or something like that) Vanessa's sister came over to drop something off for her... <_< She's hot... and she's single :x so idk whats gonna happy w/that but we'll see >_< idk if she into me though.. prolly not, just my luck X: annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnywhoooooo... That was my day/Demetri's b-day... It was hella fun :D
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